Monthly Archives: July 2017

STRANGE INTERLUDE IN THE ANTIPODES MAN SAGA

STRANGE INTERLUDE IN THE ANTIPODES MAN SAGA

I never thought I’d tell
Paul about my Southern Man
From far away.
Yet, from time to time, he does watch my You Tube stuff.
Not consistently, but sometimes.

He came up to do laundry today — Monday 17 July.
I told him I may be out of town from around the 28th
Until August 6th or so (– a very explosive event happened on that day in the past,
I believe).
I wish I knew the exact dates of his San Francisco sojourn.
Oh, Sam, please tell me.
One way or the other.

Please.

He asked questions.
I did not lead him.
I answered.
Asked and answered as the attorneys say —
at least on TV.

I tried not to volunteer anything more than what I was asked.
And eventually —
I showed him my Southern Man in the video with my son.
The video I have said I will not put up on the internet.
And I shall not.
I promised him. My Southern Man. My Sam.

He eventually said he had watched the “I Love Sam” email video.
No other remarks. Just that.
So typical of him.
Getting a discussion going with him
Was always like pulling teeth with needle-nose pliers.

So he knows. That’s fine.
I was not going to tell him for fear of hurting him.
Or maybe I’m just flattering myself by saying that.

Sam will be in Las Vegas tonight.
God willing.
Deo Volente.
He does not gamble.
He told me.

Thank God.

Good.

Worse than the other usual vices that get written about
In the tabloids and public pundits’ hysteria.

He confessed to his walling himself off from others.
From me — even (his words).
For fear of getting hurt or hurting the others.
Wound tighter than a tick.

He is.

He said he’d like to tell me everything.

Oh, Sam.
Please do.

Please do.

Please let me come see you
During your last days — for now —
In the US.
Until you come back.
With me.

Paul is napping now as his laundry runs.
I just went down and put his clothes in the dryer.
I liked the man.
I just could not live with the man.

I did not know what love was until very recently.
What I had with Paul was not —

Love.

Good friendship.
Good mateship — as perhaps Sam would say.
But not love.

Oh, Sam.
Decide. Do.

JOE S. KERSEY
17 JULY 2017

ANTIPODES MAN NO. 2

ANTIPODES MAN NO. 2

You are probably in Albuquerque.
Spent the entire day — a non-traveling day
On your motorcycle trip down Route 66,
Iconic highway of dreams, both failed and realized,
Exploring, or, as in Santa Fe,
Sitting in a bar drinking shitty American so-called beer,
All day from around noon until you texted me
— (You said you felt a bit rough) —
Near midnight to connect with me,
To exalt my heart, to turn on my yearnings and the love
That was miraculously given to me immediately as we were
Together that night now just over two weeks ago.

Saying I love you.
Saying I miss you.
Saying I need you.
All to myself, because I do not wish to trouble you,
Or appear obsessed and unreasonable and uncool.
But it’s true.

Just that.

But yesterday I sent you a link to a song —
Man I felt like such a chick —
Elvis Presley singing “I Can’t Help Falling in Love With You”.
And I couldn’t.
And I did.
Some things were meant to be.
But one would have to get a memo from God
To really be sure.

Still ….

I want to come out to San Francisco.
And spend the last few days you have in the US
Together with you.
Walking around.
Talking. Dare I say — holding hands.
Getting to know you, and you me.
What’s your birthday.
What kind of hobbies and interests do you like.
What are your brother and sister’s names. Your parents.
What turns you on. Really turns you on.
Sexually. In your head. In your heart.
What’s your world view, if you will.
All this is a fancy way of saying: Can we really get along.
Do we like each other as opposed to having passion for each other.

I want to hear you say what you have decided you really are
And how you want to live.

Live for yourself.
Or live for other people who you have said will hem you in and define you,
As long as you are not gay.
(But they love you.
And maybe they do.
But is it you.)

But you are.
Aren’t you.

If you spend your whole life being someone else,
Who is going to be you.
Your life is a limited edition.
Don’t deface it.

Please.
Oh, please.

Be with me.
Your Joe

JOE S. KERSEY
15 JULY 2017

ANTIPODES MAN

ANTIPODES MAN

Man from halfway around the world.
Unknown to me but for his name.
Watching me on You Tube.
Three and a half years he said.
And looking at other people I watch as well.
Commenting, making his presence known,
But subtly … infrequently … enigmatically.
But there, making me aware.

At least I became aware.

Then, out of the blue, a message on a video.
Can he drop in on me while traveling the US.
Well … of course … no brainer.
What to expect.
He had no You Tube picture or profile or his own videos.
Normally, I would not give such a person the time of day …
Except as a courtesy one human being owes to another.
But his comments had been humane, well spoken, courteous, informed.
Not a man one would ignore intentionally.
Or willfully do an act that would hurt him.

A day later — a text.
He’s in town.
Can he come up.
Yes. Yes. Most certainly yes.

Serendipity.
My son was here when he arrived.
Good talk.
My son had to leave for another work engagement.

Now — together.
By ourselves.
Just we two.

Deeper talk.
Specifics exchanged.
Backgrounds exchanged.
Experiences exchanged.

Eyes staring into eyes.
Moving closer together in our chairs.
His hands reaching out to take off my shirt.
My hands reaching out to take off his shirt.
Touching each other.
Leaning in to lick his pits.
Him sucking my nipples.
Me sucking his nipples.
Staring into each others eyes as we come together and kiss.

Deeply.
Intensely.
Passionately.
Bruising each other’s necks, shoulders — well that was later —
With our mouths, teeth, tongues.

Hand in hand — yes, a cliché —
We go into the bedroom — I’d already cleared all the books off the bed.
Clothes drop into piles quickly.

Bodies together.
Skin on skin.
Man feeling and stroking man.
Deeply.
Intensely.
Passionately.
Finding out what each of us likes, enjoys, asks for.

Intensely hard cock getting sucked.
Deeply.
More kissing.
Tongues in mouths.
Tasting each others skin and sweat.
Breathing each others breath.
Fingers probing and enjoying taints, and cracks, and buttholes.
Sucking and twisting and pinching nipples.
Licking and tasting pits.
Playing with chest hair, pubes, pit hair (again).
Tasting taints and butt holes (again).
Loving all his hair on his legs and ass and taint.
Getting down to that sensitive part of the base of the neck.
Asking each other to leave a mark.
Something to remember this occasion by
At least for a while, until it fades.
As the memory will not.

Me sucking.
Him sucking.
Me jacking.
Him jacking.
Not quite to fruition — enjoying the time, the delay, the intensity as it builds.

Now it is time.

I fetch rubbers and lube.
Grease myself up (water soluble only, please).
Quick as a flash and before I know it
He has the rubber on his cock.

On my belly.
Ass up.
That’s how he wants it.
Fine by me.

Into me.
On to me.
Pounding into me.
Faster.
Harder.
Deeper.
Hitting that really good spot.
Again … and again … and again.
Arms enfolding me, grasping me, under my pits and around my shoulders.
Body pressing hard against me (oh, how great).
Kissing and sucking on my neck, my shoulders.
Hard.
Marking me.
Claiming this moment for the two of us.

Then the build up.
Breathing hard against the side of my face.
And the shudder as he pumps his load into the rubber.
Lingering with his cock in my ass.
More affection.
I am completely held.
And had.
By him.
Enjoying the moment.
The time together.
Connecting on the most basic level.

He rolls off.
We face each other again on our sides.
Staring.
Whispering.
Lingering.
Breathing each other.

He said I was his first man.

Interlude.
Let’s take a shower together.
He agrees.
Always fun.
Soaping and fingering each others buttholes, cocks, backs, ass cracks, pits, crotches, chests.
Appreciating.
Looking at each other.
Penetrating each other in a different way.
Some might say a more important way.
(I shan’t dispute that, but …).

Then back to bed.
More talk and holding.
Voices getting quieter and quieter.
And words more simple and basic.
Barely whispering now.
Two syllables and no dependent clauses
(For the syntax mavens out there).
Meaning conveyed more clearly.
Directly.
Quickly.
As if there were any doubt by now.

Asking him to let me kiss his eyes.
(Total trust there.
I kiss his eyes, over and over during the rest of the night.)
His eyes were so beautiful.
He is such a beautiful man.

His arms around me.
My arms around him.
Sometimes we just held hands,
Lying side by side,
Or facing each other,
Gazing at each other.
Into each other eyes.
Kissing.
Whispering.
Breathing into each other.

And then — after a brief sleep —
I start sucking him.
And then he straddles my chest.
Looking up at him,
His cock in my mouth,
Pinching and pulling on his nipples,
As I suck and he intermittently jacks himself.
“I’m ready to come. Suck me, suck me.”
Unloading into my mouth.
I take him deeply into my throat.
He pumps.
I swallow.
I savor.
We kiss.
We share.
He savors.

Brief drifting off-and-on to sleep.
Whispered conversations.
He plays with my chest hair (no one has done that before).
He plays with my pubes (a lot of guys think they are too long — no shaving here).
I do the same to him.
Heck, I’ve been doing the same to him all along.

As 3AM comes around (I think; I took off my watch),
I reach for his cock and start jacking it.
Slowly — at first.
And then faster and faster and faster.
These things take a while (and you don’t wish for it to go fast).
He’s fully awake now.
Kissing.
Cock against bellies — his and mine.
Grabbing me.
Hard.
He grabs my shoulders, bites my neck, and shudders.
He shoots.
Licking up his cum.
Rubbing what’s left over him — and me.
Kissing.
Sharing.
Being.

My finger up his ass.
(Hard to find it, he was so tight.)
He seemed to like it.
First time there for him, too, he said.
(I believe that.)

First light.
I have to get up,
But he sleeps on for a while.

I drive him back to his hostel.
We kiss.
We part.

Joe S. Kersey
1 July 2017