ANTIPODES MAN NO. 2
You are probably in Albuquerque.
Spent the entire day — a non-traveling day
On your motorcycle trip down Route 66,
Iconic highway of dreams, both failed and realized,
Exploring, or, as in Santa Fe,
Sitting in a bar drinking shitty American so-called beer,
All day from around noon until you texted me
— (You said you felt a bit rough) —
Near midnight to connect with me,
To exalt my heart, to turn on my yearnings and the love
That was miraculously given to me immediately as we were
Together that night now just over two weeks ago.
Saying I love you.
Saying I miss you.
Saying I need you.
All to myself, because I do not wish to trouble you,
Or appear obsessed and unreasonable and uncool.
But it’s true.
Just that.
But yesterday I sent you a link to a song —
Man I felt like such a chick —
Elvis Presley singing “I Can’t Help Falling in Love With You”.
And I couldn’t.
And I did.
Some things were meant to be.
But one would have to get a memo from God
To really be sure.
Still ….
I want to come out to San Francisco.
And spend the last few days you have in the US
Together with you.
Walking around.
Talking. Dare I say — holding hands.
Getting to know you, and you me.
What’s your birthday.
What kind of hobbies and interests do you like.
What are your brother and sister’s names. Your parents.
What turns you on. Really turns you on.
Sexually. In your head. In your heart.
What’s your world view, if you will.
All this is a fancy way of saying: Can we really get along.
Do we like each other as opposed to having passion for each other.
I want to hear you say what you have decided you really are
And how you want to live.
Live for yourself.
Or live for other people who you have said will hem you in and define you,
As long as you are not gay.
(But they love you.
And maybe they do.
But is it you.)
But you are.
Aren’t you.
If you spend your whole life being someone else,
Who is going to be you.
Your life is a limited edition.
Don’t deface it.
Please.
Oh, please.
Be with me.
Your Joe
JOE S. KERSEY
15 JULY 2017
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